Truly Happy?

Can you truly say you're happy with your life?

Can anyone truly tell themselves or others that life is going great?

I know of no one, not the poor, middle class, or wealthy...

Not the child, young man, or old...

I know of no one who is truly satisfied with their lives.

There's always something wrong, something that's off by just enough...

That we realized we want what we don't have or could have..

Or might never have.

I try to look at the little things in life that amuse me..

Italian paperclips...

The last Harry Potter book...

Soda cans lined up on the windowsil...

My kitten Sawyer as he naps in the rocking chair...

None of that seems to matter right now as I sit back and take a breath.

Why can't I just be happy?

I am happy, right?

I've got a great husband, close friends, a little extra stashed away for Italy...

Sometimes that smile appears all on it's own, but most of the time...

It comes on command.

No one is truly happy and if they say they are...

Shoot them on sight.

Thanksgiving Break

Monday or Tuesday I'll be driving home to visit family for Thanksgiving. I've left my cat, Sissy Grace, with a friend here in the Springs while I'm gone. It's been hard, trying to find a job, but patience is a virtue. Much love to all this holiday. Thanks to everyone who has always stood by Steven and I when it came to us getting married and thank you again for keeping him in your prayers while he's gone.

Home Sweet Home

Needing some advice.

I just want my best friend back. Is that too much to ask? I've gotten my feelings her by my best friend and for a while there I was fuming mad at her because of this break she wanted to take. The way she worded things, it just seemed like I was her entertainment, and right at that moment, she was bored of me. It really hurt my feelings. I know and understand we both have very seperate lives right now. We're each trying to go a different way in life. I'm married and she's in college. I get that, but we can still call each other once a week or so and write emails and stuff like that. I do my best to keep this friendship going and I don't get any help from the other person, my best friend. It seems I'm not that important to her anymore, like she's grown out of my like an imaginary friend. It really really hurts my feelings and I've even cried because of it. I hate to lose my best friend, but I just can't keep putting my all into something the other person won't help out on.

If anyone knows how I should handle this, feel free to leave me comments and some words of wisdom.

Thanks! 

Wow. It's been two weeks. I've come home to visit for a little perspective, which is always good. My mom and I have already had a fight. Not so good. I helped my grandma move into her new place. My exercise for the next year or so. I'll probably stay in the Springs. I think my biggest thing I needed was a 'family fix'. Kind of how people need their caffeine fix, I need to see my family and know everything would be okay.

I went to church this morning with my parents, which probably made alot of people at my church wonder where I was at. I didn't get a phone call, which I expected, so they must not be that worried or upset.

I know this is a day late, but I just wanted to say this and get it over with.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZANE!